Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I really like this quote, because it can relate to a lot of things in your life, relationships, family, jobs, etc. And it can all happen for different reasons alcohol, drugs, cheating, etc. We, or at least I did, take for granted for all that we are blessed with. I had a family that loved me, a decent job, a vehicle to get me to that job, a roof over my head, a God that never left me, and so many other things. I never thought that I would or could lose any of it. I earned it, or deserved it all, so should never lose it, right? Wrong! Who was I? Just another alcoholic that could have anything taken away at any given time. But I was lucky enough to just get close enough to not lose it all. My family gave me one last chance and helped me out and I went to treatment. When I got back, my boss told me that when my mom called me in and said I was going to be gone for a while because I was going to treatment, if I would have been calling in sick, I would have been fired. A lot of people had had enough. I thought I had a lot of people fooled, the only person fooled was me. Don't lose what you have, you never know when you might. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
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Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alaocohlic/addict. Each person deals with different situations or traumas in their life differently. Some people see a pshyciatrist and tell them all their deepest and darkest secrets and no one else and that's good enough for them. Some people go to group meetings and tell them and feel better. Some go to church and find God and fellowship with other Christians. Some do a combination of them. For me, doing a a few different things and being vocal and not being ashamed of it was big for me. I am not saying you have to scream it from a mountain top, or write a book. But for me that was MY therapy. That was MY way of dealing. I am not about judging how anyone else does their journey or life, so please don't judge mine. I will continue my journey this way, because this is what keeps ME sober. I talked with so many people at my book signing with weekend, it was amazing. That helps me stay sober. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. It took me a long time, and I'm still working on accepting myself, loving myself for who I am. I know I'm not perfect, and never really pretended to be. I am a sinner, but forgiven. But each day, I am getting better at accepting who I am, God's beautiful creation. I am made just the way He wanted, so I shouldn't complain about my eyes not being perfectly even or my super long arms, or the way my brain is always going, or whatever. That's how God made ME. And God made you exactly how He wanted YOU! So the first step to loving yourself is accepting that. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering/alcoholic/addict. Today I have 19 months clean and sober! One thing I have realized in my sobriety is that I am not alone in this. And no matter how alone I feel, I am not alone. God is always with me. He has promised me that. I also have many friends and family that are there for me, but when it comes down to it, God is always, always, always just a prayer away. He can give me peace and guiadance. When it's 2am and my friend doesn't pick up the phone, He is there. But reach out to people too, go to meetings, get involved in your group, whatever it may be, get a sponsor, read inspirational books, do whatever it takes to keep you clean and sober. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Finding the right people to talk to, who understand you, made the big difference in my life. NOT talking at all was the worse mistake. These last few days have brought up a lot of memories of my past. I'm just giving the best advice I can based on my experience. Lived and learned. I have said it before, only an addict can relate, or empathize, with another addict, same with someone that is struggling with depression or another mental illness, or anything in life as a matter of fact. It's easier to get through life with someone by your side. You are not alone. Reach out. There are other people out there like you. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I am grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I heard some sad news today. A girl I know, and I won't tell you who if you ask me, is in the hospital on suicide watch. It's not someone you'd think would be there. They're normal, fun, involved. But deep, down hurting. The only reason I know this is because I was once like this. I was a cutter too years ago. I have a few scars, but not bad ones. But still reminders of the deep depression I was once in. The lies I told people, "I'm fine", "I'm ok." The long sleeves I would wear to cover the cuts so my mom wouldn't see them. My head was so messed up. There were times I was suicidal, but I don't know if I really wanted to die, I just wanted the pain to stop. What pain, you ask? I was 15. I was a kid, with no problems. Life hadn't even started yet. Oh, but yes it had. Boys, friends, or lack there of, horomones, being undiagnosed bi-polar, manic depressive, was only the beginning. Then I started to drink and drug the pain away, so I didn't have to feel anything. Really listen to the people you love when you ask them questions. The short answers, are usually the quick way out of the truth. Listen to them. It may not be what you want to hear, but they need you to hear it. Please. I'm a lucky one who made it through. There is hope, I am proof. It does get better. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Sometimes when I think God is telling me 'no', I need to stop and think...God knows what is best for me, maybe He is saying 'not yet', or He has something better in mind. Lately, I have been doing a lot more praying and a lot less stressing. Giving God my problems, letting Him take care of them. There are a lot of people in my life right now stuggling, with cancer, with relapse, with life. A lot of people hurting. I never realized that living the life of a recovering alcoholic/addict, I would continue to be around recovering alcoholic/addicts who would be suffering as well. Seeing people hurt and relapse while my life is going so good, it's weird. I wish I could make people "get it." Show them how if you work hard the promises come. It is so worth it. Me just realizing that God knows best in whatever His answer is, I just need to be patient and do His will. That's all for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. One thing that hurts, it to see another alcoholic or addict still struggling. But another thing I have to realize is that I do not have control over that person. I only have control over myself and my reactions. I can only control how I react to others. They can do all the bad things and say all the hurtful words they want to or about me, but I have control of the situation if I don't let it get to me, or if I just walk away. I know it is a lot easier said than done, and most of the time I want to blow right back up at them and react in a negative way. But learning to control my anger and controling the situation in a positive way is a much better decision than getting crazy and ruining relationships or spewing venomous words that shouldn't have been said. Today I am trying and working on a daily basis to make better decisions, and reacting in more of a mature manner than I used to. That't still a process too. Bt that's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. One of my problems, or character defects, is thinking I can handle all my own problems. I like to be in control. Giving God control was kind of hard, and still is kind of hard for me to do on a day to day basis, but I know if I do this it makes my day easier. Sometimes it's easy to do, but sometimes it is difficult. Somtimes, I give my troubles to God, but then quickly take them on for me to worry about. For one, it give me something to do, and two, I guess I just like the stress. I don't know. I got my Bachelor's degree, because I wanted to be able to take care of myself. Not that I didn't need a man, but it's that control thing again. I have to have control. I need to learn to let go of the reigns a little more, even in my daily life. So there is another thing for me to work on. :) Well, that's all for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcholic/addict. Sometimes I would sit and try to figure out why I was the way I was. I would try to understand why I did the things I did. Where exactly in my life I started to make the 'bad' decisions. What was that pivital point in my life that made me start to turn down that road of self-destruction. What could have I done differently. But then I have to stop and take a step back and realize that I can't do anything about it now and just accept it. I will never be able to understand it, I just need to accept it. There are a lot of things in my life that I will never understand, that I just need to accept. It is a very hard realization, but it is very true. Another hard truth is, you are exactly where you need to be in your life right now. Whether it be a good place or a bad place, it will get you to where you need to be, I believe. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
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