Good afternoon! My name is Lauren & I'm a very grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. Today has been such a great day. I feel so blessed today. Such amazing things are happening in my life right now, that I never thought possible. I can't go in to any detail yet, but it will soon be revealed. :) Anyways! I saw a GREAT quote today.
Acceptance does not mean that I have to agree, I don’t have to approve, I don’t even have to like it. I just have to accept. –unknown Wow. This is so true. When I first got sober, I thought, "Wow this is gonna suck." I thought it would be boring, I would have no friends. But it is the total opposite. The first thing I had to do was admit it. I knew I had a problem, I knew I needed help. I wanted help, but I didn't. Was it worth the energy? Did it really matter? I wasn't hurting anyone, but myself right? WRONG! I was hurting everyone. I was a disease that infected everyone around me. Everyone that I was close to, everyone that really loved me. I didn't realize how everything I did affected everyone also. Now, it can be the same way. With my negativity, I was affecting everyone negatively. But now with my sobriety, I can affect positively as well. Do you know how good it feels to have someone say something as little as, "Wow, Lauren, watching you in your sobriety gives me hope." WOW! That feeling is amazing! Never in a million years would I have thought I would have a positive impact on someone else. To give someone else suffering from addiction, a little glimpse of hope. Showing that it's not so bad being sober! LOL It's the best feeling in the world! Well that's all for today! Have a great weekend!
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Good morning! My name is Lauren & I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. It's a fantastically dreary day today again, as it has been all week. I'm patiently waiting for the sun to come back out. I say a quote today that I liked. To err is human, but when the eraser wears out ahead of the pencil, you’re overdoing it.
–Josh Jenkins It is so true. We all make mistakes, we are human. But when we continue to make the same mistakes over and over and over again, there is a problem. We need to learn from our mistakes. We need to own them. With that, also, we are not perfect. We will still make them, and "bad" things still might happen to us, losing a job or someone we love. Sobriety doesn't make life perfect, but it does make it better than what it was. We will be better to deal with these issues, called life. We are capable of great things. We can be honest and caring if we choose to be. That's all for today! Have a great one! Good afternoon! My nameis Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. I heard someone the other day say. "Why me? Why did I become an addict? I shouldn't be an addict." Well, I thought about it for a minute and realized, I didn't want to either, but people with cancer don't choose to have it either. We are dealing with a cunning, baffling, deadly disease. When I was younger, I didn't think, "Hey, when I grow up I want to be a doctor, oh wait no, I want to be an alcoholic." I didn't choose to become an addict, and I can't choose not to be an addict. I will always be an addict, but I am responsible for my recovery. I can choose what I do about it today. I can choose how I respond to different circumstances today. Before I would drink for any reason, like, "I had a bad day, I need a drink." or "Today was a great day, I need to celebrate!" Then everything became a reason to drink. It was sunny. It was cloudy. I was happy. I was sad. EVERYTHING. It was ridiculous. Now, I just celebrate life because God gave me one more day on this earth, alive and sober. That's all for today. Have a great night!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm blessed recovering alcoholic/addict. I've been really busy recently. (Not to make excuses.) Busy doing "normal" things: working, making dinner, helping with homework, family time, etc. In the past, my life consisted of working, drinking, and complaining. Nothing was good enough, I never felt good, I was always tired, I was unhappy. Everyone and everything was a burden to me. What a waste of my life. It's crazy to think that I am so happy with my life now. And it is "normal" to anyone else. I am still living paycheck to paycheck, deciding which bill has to be paid first. But ya know what? It could be worse. I could not have a job, not have a loving family, not have good friends that really care about me. I am so happy to be where I am today, cuz I've seen my rock bottom, and I don't ever want to go there again. I am so blessed. Also, I have some great news. My author's final proof of my book is in the mail!!! This is so real! I will actually have a copy in my hand next week. To give it the go-ahead to go into production. I am so amazed at how much my life has changed. And ya know what? It didn't just happen, I had to work for it. I am also still raising funds to be able to go back to the treatment facility that helped get me sober. So if you would like to help be take advantage of this wonderful opportunity, please donate. Just go to gofundme.com/laurenyoder. Thank you very much! Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm an alcoholic/addict. The other day I had someone ask me how long I was going to go to meetings? My reply was, "As long as I want to stay sober." My reasoning is, when people go to church and then become Christians, do they stop going to church? No. The continue to go for the fellowship with other Christians. To learn more. To learn how to live. Same thing with the AA program. Addicts don't do to meetings, admit they are an alcoholic/addict, then quit going because they are "healed." No one is ever cured. This is an evil disease, and needs constant work to work. In one of my reading this morning, there was a quote. "May you live all the days of your life." -Jonathan Swift. Well, when I first read it, I thought. Well, duh, that's what we do, right? But then I started to really think about it. Not just to live, which could mean, go though the motions as each day passes. But to really LIVE. Yes, life is hard, but accepting that, makes it easier to go though. We can spend a lot of time avoiding the hardships of life, but we could be using that same energy to solving our problems. Life is short, so we need to take advantage of every moment we have and to love. Well, that's all I have for today. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren & I'm an alcoholic/addict. Today is my 8 month anniversary of being sober! Yipee! One day at a time. I decided to add a picture I did (yes, I do photography.) CHANGE. I didn't have to only quit drinking to make my life get better, I had to make a change. I only had to change one thing, and that was EVERYTHING!! Drinking is not only a physical problem, it is a spiritual problem. And I'm not talking religious, I mean spiritual. The definition of spiritual is in relation to human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things. Spiritual deterioration is a major factor of substance abuse. We need to put a lot of emphasis on this in recovery. We must make spiritual choices to be spiritual people. We are the only ones responsible for our choices. So we must learn to make better ones, for our lives to get better. Well, that's all for today. Have a great Friday!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. Well it has been busy these last few days, not that I'm making excuses. So...One of my readings today was pretty good (not that they usually aren't.) It talked about us thinking everything always had to be perfect. And that when we made a mistake we were bad. Mistakes are normal. We can learn from them. Mistakes can be used to teach and guide us. One thing that we are taught though is that once we have made a mistake, "promptly admitted it." and that we don't continually make that same mistake. The insanity of it is we can't keep making the same mistake and expect a different result. We need to learn from them. They can make us a better person. They make us who we are, we just don't need to keep making the same ones over and over, thinking it will change the outcome. That's all for today! Have a great night!
PS I am raising funds to be able to go back to the treatment center that helped get me sober, to share my testimony with other recovering alcoholic/addicts. If you would like to help me out, that would be great. Please go to gofundme.com/laurenyoder Thanks! HI, my name is Lauren & I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I'm not quite ready for fall yet. Supposed to do a couple thing with the family today outside. Brrrr! Tomorrow I am doing a walk for Juvenile Diabetes. My nephew has it. Last year this time, I would have been to selfish to do anything to help anyone out. But it's not all about me anymore. So I'm doing what I can, to help someone else out. I've learned not to take anything or anyone for granted. You never know what can happen.
In one of my reading this morning it talked about how when we got sober we thought we were fixed. But the truth is, as with any disease, it does not happen over night. A fortune cookie once said, "Your 3 best doctors are faith, time, and patience." And if anyone knows me, I'm not the most patient person in the world...but am working on it every day. I keep trusting God to heal me every day. Lord knows, I can't do it by myself. One day at a time, I get stronger and happier. Each day I know myself better. And I'm ok with that. Have a great day! Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic. It's finally Friday! I started a GoFundMe account to help me get funds to be able to go back to the treatment center that got me sober, to share my story with other recovering alcoholic/addicts. at gofundme.com/laurenyoder I'm excited for the weekend! We are going to a pumpkin farm on Saturday, and Sunday I am going to a walk for Juvenile Diabetes. My nephew has it, so just helped out the cause. Not a whole lot to say today, just happy to be alive and sober one more day. It was hard to say that I could never drink again. But all I can say is that I won't drink today. One day at a time. Just doing the next right thing. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I'm grateful to be alive and sober today. Today I am going to share story of my car accident that was the wake up call to me getting sober.
January 28, 2014 5:23am I wake up, and look up and see 3219. I stop and think. What just happened? Those are house numbers. Why am I laying sideways? in my car? in the snow? My legs are scrunched up tight. I can't move. I'm freaking out. "Get me out of here!!!" I scream. "Get me outta here!!!" I see the lights flashing behind me. The paramedics must already be here. How long was I out? How did I get here? I think for a minute. I was on my way to work. I remember leaving the gas station, and turning right...and that was it. I hear a man behind me breaking out the rear drivers' side window. He tells me they are working on getting me out. I ask him what happened. He said I was driving down the road and went off the road, through a few yards, flipped my car on it's side, and ran into a house. What???" It was 15 houses down from the gas station. Did I black out? I don't remember. There was a big rock in front of the house that stopped me from going further into the house. So I lay there...stuck...I can't move my legs...freaking out. "Get me outta here!!!" The fireman is reaching in the car, from the back window, to hold my hand, to comfort me. Still I scream. I just want out! He gives me his coat to cover my body. They are going to break out the rear windshield to get me out. The glass shatters. I'm not claustrophobic, but I can't move my legs. I feel trapped. I just want out. I just want to run. I just want to go home. The fireman tells me, they are working as fast as they can to safely get me out. I sit there and think, how bad am I hurt? My legs aren't broken, just trapped. My foot hurts, but probably just cut and bruised. My left arm hurts, but just bruised. My neck is burned from the seatbelt. I can move everything, so I'm just beat up a little. I scream again. "Get me outta here! Get me outta here!!!" I must have yelled that 100 times. It seems like I have been in here for hours. I had no concept of time. I wonder how long it has been stuck here? It is so cold. I remember the weather man saying "high of 31 degrees today, with a wind-chill of 17" and is only like 5 something in the am. There is already 6" of snow on the ground. I am freezing. The fireman continues to hold my hand as I scream. He then tells me they are going to have to saw the roof of my car to get me out. What??? Not my car? You can't do that!! Just get me out!!! I'm fine. Just let me climb out! He tells me to cover my head and body completely with his coat, to protect me. It's so dark. So loud. I hear the chainsaw start up. It cuts through the metal and I feel the vibrations all through my body. It seems like forever. It is so loud...and close to my head. I just keep screaming. "Get me out!!!!!" 43 minutes later I am extracted from my car. I am put onto a flat board carefully and into the ambulance. And the rest is another story. |
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