Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Believing in yourself is a very hard thing to do. Having others believe in you is easy. Others believed in me, but for me to do was a totally different thing. Once I made that decision to get sober, that was half the battle. That was a big decision. Then I had to believe in myself that I could actually do it, and follow through it. It was a life decision. It wasn't just something I was going to do one time, like going into a gas station, and standing in line and deciding which candy bar I wanted. It was deciding if I wanted to live or die. But it wasn't that easy. For some of you reading this, who are not or have not struggled with addiction. It sounds so stupid and like such an easy choice, but to those in recovery, you know exactly what I mean. The drugs and alcohol has such a stronghold over our brains, it seems to make decisions for us. But making the decision to get clean and sober was half the battle and believing myself, I knew I could do it. And I am doing it, one day at a time. Here I am, day 428. Believe you can, you can do it with anything. My daughter is learning to ride a bike right now. We have been working on it for a while. Last summer, she tried a few times, but kept quitting right away. She didn't believe in herself. This summer she keeps telling herself, even outloud, "Come on, Laney, keep your balance. Keep peddling." She believes in herself this year. She can do ti for a while. She is so close. Any day now, she will be off and going by herself. All she had to do was believe. That's all I got for today. Have a great one!
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Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Now, this may not be true for all, but is for me. Once I got sober, and rearranged my life and my priorities, it is easier for me to stay clean and sober. But for me to get to that point was a totally different story. I didn't want to do it. I didn't think I COULD do it. I thought I would die. I was comfortable in the miserableness of my life, in denial of everything. It's weird thinking back sometimes. I was so messed up, I don't know what I was I thinking, or if what I was thinking was what I was even what I was really thinking. I hate not knowing. There are chunks of my life missing. Times gone. Memories blocked. But once I got to that teetering point, then made that decision, my life changed forever. But getting there seemed like forever. It wasn't like I just quit drinking and everything was fine. It was a process. I had to mentally make that decision, as well as spiritually, then physically. Even though I told my body I was done drinking, it didn't like that idea, and it gave me hell for months, my body ached. Today it is better. Today it is easier. Today I love my life, clean and sober. Have a great day!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. This weekend Chris and I have the opportunity to go to a Marraige retreat. It is sponsored by Family Life. I am excited! WE are excited. :) It will be good for us. I really like this quote above. No relationship is all sunshine, but two people can share one umbrella and survive the storm together. You also need to be able to be able to be close to each other in close quarters without getting easily aggravated. Sometimes the umbrella can get a little tight, depending how long the storm lasts. Forgiving is a big factor in a relationship as well. A happy marriage is the union of two good forgivers. A perfect marriage is two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other. So I am getting ready to learn about myself, about us. What we can do to strengthen our relationship with each other, with God. Here we go. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I know I feel good when people tell me thank you for something that I have done for them, so I need to tell them thank you when they have done things for me. There are so many times people do things, and I just say, "Thanks!" But if I took 5 more seconds and looked them in the eye and really said, "Thank you." and gave them a little more of a reason why, maybe personalized it a little. It means so much more. Maybe even specifically calling someone or writing them a thank you note. Actually taking time, instead of spitting out words that naturally come out (or at least were supposed to have been taught to come out when someone does something for you.) My grandma writes thank you notes every Christmas for the gifts she got, she writes down each specifc gift she received. Nowadays, people don't do that. No one takes the time. Everyone is "too busy." We text, we facebook we email. Everything is so fast-paced. So I know I need to slow-down and just be grateful, and thank those who help me. I am very appreciative of those who do help, but I need let them know that. They need to personally know how grateful I am, how thankful I am of their love and support. So thank you. Thank you God, thank you Chris, Mom & Dad, Desert Palms, friends and family I don't have time to mention everyone on here, but thanks you! And this isn't the only thank you you will get. :) That's all I got for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm the richest, most grateful, recovering, alcoholic/addict. Well, maybe not, but I'm pretty darn happy. I have never been more happy in my life. I have never felt more rich. Never felt more blessed. I have so much! So much to live for. so much to be happy for. God has been so forgiving, and opened His loving arms out to me. I may not have a brand new $350,000 house, but I have a house that I have a mortgage on, that I am making payments on, with my own money. I may not have a 2015 Chevy Camero, but I have a 2003 Toyota Corolla with 166,000 miles on it that gets me to and from my job every day. I have a job. I have 2 beautiful children that God has blessed me and my amazing husband with. I have a great husband that has stood by my side through my alcoholism. I have parents that through their tough love, helped me get to treatment. I have an amazing support system. People that I met in treatment, that I still talk to on a daily/weekly basis. Friends in AA, that I see at meetings and functions. My sponsor. My higher power, God. I have more things, now, that I truly realize and understand and count as blessings. I thank you God for your everlasting love! That's all I got for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Last night I had a friend I met, when I went back to speak at the treatment center, call me. She got home a few days ago. I am so glad she called! She will now be a life-long friend. We have a bond, a connection, something that will always link us together. She is part of my recovery story, and I am part of hers. I love meeting new people, and hearing their story, just listening, sometimes that's all they want, someone to listen. But these people become family, people that I was in treatment with became family, I spent so much time with them, they knew everything about me. Now I meeting new people, at meetings, at AA functions, in life in general, in recovery, from the treatment center when I went back, they are becoming like family now too. When I was drinking and using, I lost all my friends, I go to the point where I didn't want to be with anyone but myself and my vodka. I didn't want anything to come between it. That was it. Now I venturing outside of myself and becoming the old me again, and having friends again. It's amazing what sobriety can do. It's funny how "normal" can be exciting for me, when it is just normal for everyone else. But ya know what? It makes me happy, and that's all that matters. That's all I got today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today is my son's 3rd birthday, and when I saw this quote, I laughed. When the house is quiet, I know he is guilty. He is doing something he isn't supposed to be doing. But he is a kid, and he is a boy, and that's what they do. But that's where I come in. But that's what my job as a mom is. To teach him, right from wrong. And in my sobriety, I have a second chance to do that now. Also in my sobriety, I am learning, when to keep my own mouth shut. When to keep my mouth shut and just listen. Sometimes I just need to listen, instead of opening my big mouth. Yes, sometimes I think I am the only one who has a lot to say and everyone needs to listen to me, but I am learning to shut up and listen. Other people have more important things that I need to hear sometimes too. And more and more I am beginning to see that. But it took time and continues to take time. But one day at a time, I am learning new things, and learning more things about me. And loving me. I am learning to speak up when I need to, and listen when I need to as well, (especially when my house is quiet) That's all I got for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. There are always people in our lives that we think we need to please or impress, when in all actuality we don't need to have anything to do with. They have nothing to do with any other actual part of our lives. Maybe it is someone we work with, and the only time we see them is at work, so yes maybe they are involved in your life, but don't let your life revolve around impressing them. There may be people at school that you know what, in a few years, you may never see again. There are people everywhere, that really don't care anything about you, that you are worried about what they think about you, that you are worried about they are talking about you. When they either have no idea who you are, or are talking good about you, or are talking crap about you. What other people think of you should have no effect on how you act or behave. Now I'm not saying you should quit caring for people, or do whatever you want, because people don't matter, but you know what I mean. Be you, be who God created you to be. Be nothing more, be nothing less. Quit stressing about it. And I'm not just telling you this. I'm telling ME this. :) That's all I got for today! Have a great one!
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