Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I am roller coaster of emotions. Blessed to sober, happly to be alive, but we all go through difficult times in our lives, and I can be sad too. But today I am not running to the bottle to fix that problem. Smoking a bowl won't make my bills stop. Snorting a line won't make cancer go away. Life goes on. Today I can turn to God when I have stuggles, not to alcohol or whatever. Today, I saw familar faces in the paper that will be doing a lot of years for some stupid decisions related to drugs, and it makes me glad of the decision I made to get clean and sober. There is only one end on the road I was heading: jails, institutions or death. And I was headed there fast. Today, I ask God for help when I have a problem, I pray to Him. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
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Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Abraham Lincoln said, "Character is like a tree, and reputation is like a shadow. The shadow is what we think of it. The tree is the real thing." My reputation before was not something to be really proud of. I was the girl that drank as many shots as she could as fast as she could. I was always the first to pass out. Today I am buildling character. I am not so much worried about my reputation, but today I not not ashamed of it. God has let me go throught different stages of my life to build me up, to make grow. It made me who I am today, and I proud of that. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. 1 Timothy 4:12 says, "...be an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity." I am commanded to be an example. I need to be kind to those that are unkind. There are some people that drive me crazy, but I still need to be nice to them and love them. God tells me to. Forgive those who don't deserve it. God has forgiven me, and I am to forgive them as well. What I say and what I do reflects who I am. Is what I am reflecting, someone I am proud of? That is a question I need to ask myself on a daily basis. Maybe even more often than that. Only in my sobriety have I been able to actually be proud of the example I am. Today I am proud of who I am. Be who you want to be, but be genuine, be kind and loving. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I am going to go back to the way I used to feel. I saw this quote and know a lot of people can relate, so figured I would write about it. I pushed a lot of people away when I was drinking and using...a lot of people I loved, the most important people in my life as a matter of fact. I got to the point where I was isolating. I wanted to be by myself, but I did also want someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok. To tell me they loved me. I would lay in my bed at night alone, with alcohol hidden every where in my room, so I really wasn't alone. At that point alcohol was my only friend. I would sneak shots all night. It was ridiculous! I wasn't doing it for fun anymore. I was doing it do I wouldn't die! I needed help! Finally, I got the help I needed. I quit pushing people away. I started hugging them and letting them tell me it's ok, and now we are doing it together. That's al I have for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I celebrate 18 months of sobriety! I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to share this day with you. People don't realize how many things you can actually be "recovering" from. Just look at this list. No one is perfect, and we all have suffered from some sort of one of those listed above, if not us, we know some one who has. We can celebrate recovery together! And for most of us, it is a continuous process, it is not just a one time thing, getting recovered. It is BEING IN recovery. I will be a recovering alcoholic/addict until the day I die. I am not ashamed to say it. I take it one day at a time. It is a learning experience, and I am learning more each day. I am learning how to live. There are people with 40 years sober in my group, still 'learning how to live.' I love it! That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Sounds simple enough, right foot, left foot, over and over. Not so much. We get off track. Sometimes we stumble, but pick yourself back up and keep going. Keep doing the next right thing. It all started with one step. We all had to take that first step. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." -Lao Tzo. Just keep going. You can do it. We are here with you. Know it or not, there are thousands of us AAer's with you, at least in spirit, but God is always with you. Keep your head up. That's all for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. You have heard it before, "Progress, not perfection." That's all it is. I just need to be better than I was yesterday. I can strive all I want be perfect but never will be, but it to be better every day is a good goal to have. Last night someone said, she was just focusing on not drinking TODAY, not tomorrow, not next week, but today. That's progress. Don't worry about the future, worry about today, right now. Let's take life one day at a time. And we may stumble and fall along the way, but that doesn't mean we have to drink or use over it. Keep heading in the right direction, keep moving forward. Once again, progress, not perfection. We can do it...together. That's all I got for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. What a simple, yet profound statement. All I have to do is call upon God and He is there. What a comforting couple verses. It is so good to know that I am not alone in this world. The other day in our AA meeting we talked about how all the 12 Steps, have "we" not "I" in them. It is a "we" program. We do not do it alone. We CANNOT do it alone. It is also true in my life. God is now very much a part of my life, and really is the center of my life. I can go to Him for anything, for everything. I can pray for help, pray for guidance, but most of all pray for thanks. Here's a poem I wrote:
My God My higher power, whom I call God Is always there for me. He gives me strength and courage and hope. His love has set me free. I know I can't do it alone. I need Him every day. All I need to do for His help Is just to ask and pray. That's all for today! Have a great one! Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Sometimes when you don't think you can do something, a friend is there to give you that little push you need to to get there. Friends can help us and they can hurt us. But real friends are the ones that stay with you through the good times and the hard times. They help you when everyone else has given up. They help you find things in yourself you think you had lost, your true spirit, your kind heart, your courage. You are stronger than you think. You have a friend in me. I am here with you, to help you. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Trust is a touchy subject with any recovering alcoholic or addict. Some think they deserve to have it right away. Some understand that it takes time to earn back, and with some it may never be completely gotten back. We talked about it a lot in treatment, and I knew what I had ahead of me. I had hurt a lot of people, and had a lot of trust repairing to work on. I knew it would take a lot of time. I knew not to expect anything. They would only give me the trust they thought I deserved, in the time they thought neccessary. I had to respect that. At first it was a hard thing to accept, but I had to learn to deal with it. And acceptance is a huge part of the program. I had put myself in that situation in the first place, and had consequence to deal with. This was one of them. It's been almost 18 months, and I'm sure I'm still not fully trusted. But I am happy with where I am at in my life today. That's all I have for today! Have a great one!
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