Day 322

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict.  I was in denial for a long time.  I knew I had a problem and wanted help, but I really didn't.  I was telling so many lies, I started believing them.  I didn't know the truth from the lies.  Not only was I lying to others, but to myself.  It hurts me to see someone else in denial. I cannot diagnose anyone with anything, but when you see it first hand and know there is a problem and there is nothing you can do about it, it hurts.  I was in denial for years, but seeing someone in the exact situation, and they are in denial too, I feel helpless.  You can only tell someone so many times how you really feel about what you think of their problem, but until they realize how much of a problem it really is, can anything be done.  I am helpless.  And I hate that feeling.  I want to help someone so bad, but they have to want to help themselves.  I am now understanding how they felt about me, but it is even harder knowing the same about them, but they are in denial as well.  If they are not willing to make the changes necessary, nothing will change.  The misery will continue.  I am also now understanding how much my problem affected others, but it hurts even more when someone close to you does the same thing you did to them. So I can only pray.  Have a great day!