Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. Today marks 9 months of sobriety time! That is so awesome. But ya know what, It's no any longer than anyone else. It's just another 24 hours. I can't look too far into the future, because I am just 1 drink away from being a drunk. It could be any day. I'm not promised another day of sobriety none the less another day alive. I have to just put one foot in front of the other and do it one day at a time. Here is my poem called "One Day at a Time"
One Day at a Time You were my best friend. I loved you so. I would do anything, To any lengths I would go. I would lie to people about you, To the people closest to me. You said you'd always be there, Always make me happy. They said you would kill me. You'd take all I cared for. I just couldn't believe that. You said you could give me more. But then they said they'd leave me If you were who I chose. Were you really worth it? Were you worth all these woes? So I sat back to think Of all the hurt you caused me. Not one thing I did better with you On that we could agree. Before you took me to the grave. Before you took everything. I tore from the grip you had on me But to me you tried to cling. Now I live without you I'm trying to realign Doing the next right thing. One day at a time. So with that being said. I'm very proud of myself, but it's just one more day! And that's all I can keep doing! have a great one!
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Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. Wow, this quote really got me. I know now that I need to start listening more and talking less, but this quote is spot on. There is a BIG difference between hearing and listening. According to Wikipedia, "Listening is often confused with hearing. While hearing is a process that can be scientifically explained, listening is a neurological cognitive regarding the processing of auditory stimuli received by the auditory system." So I need to shut up and listen. I need to really listen to them, how they are feeling, what their hurts are. Maybe I don't need to say a word at all. But I need to really listen to them, instead of just hearing the words that come out of their mouths. I'll be honest, sometimes I am more apt to listen to someone just so they will listen to me. But I need to be genuinely listening, and really caring. So with that being said, I will shut up, and listen to you. Enough about me...tell me about you... That's all for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I have come to learn that I am courageous in standing up for what I believe in and being open about speaking. But what I really need to work on is just being quiet and listening. Sometimes I get so caught up in telling my story, I don't be quiet and listen to others. That is one thing I am continuously working on. I have always been a good talker, but really need to slow down, be patient, and listen to others. Sometimes, just listening is all someone needs. They don't want to hear me ramble on about my problems. They just want someone to listen to theirs. Maybe just someone to hear what's going on in their lives. Maybe them speaking it out in words, instead on just in their head, may make more sense once the words come out. So today I will be still, sit down and listen. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I really like the above quote. Stirve for progress, not perfection. I know I will not ever be perfect, but as long I am a better person than I was yesterday, I feel I have gotten somewhere. I don't want to be anyone else, I just want to be me. Not that I hate the person I am today, but want to become a better person everyday. To be less selfish, to be a better listener, to be more kind, to be more loving. The way I was headed before, was either nowhere or down. I didn't care about anyone but me, but then it got to the point where I wasn't even doing that. Now I put one foot in fron of the other, and have a positive outlook, because ya know what...I only live once, so why have it be miserable. I'm not gonna get another chance at it. It's not like when I die, I start a new life
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I've been thinking a lot about life recently. Life has gotten a lot better since I'm sober, but nothing around me has changed, I had to change. And with that change, came new opportunities. As you know, I recently got a book published, and I had someone ask me why my book wasn't in the order of my life. I didn't want tpeople to think that since I got sober everything is perfect. It's not, but it's a heck of a lot better than it was. Life is life. Also, I didn't want people to kill themselves after reading the first few pages which are so depressing and suicidal. I also didn't want people to skip around, only reading the section on recovery. I want people to see my life as it was, the rollercoaster of emotions, or lack thereof. I had some great experiences in my life when I was using, and I've had some bad times now that I'm sober. The quote above, brings it all together. Me having serenity does not mean I don't still have struggles, but I now can deal with them in a different way, a better way. With that being said, have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. I've been thinking a lot lately...I should have done this. why did I do that? what was I thinking? But ya know what. It is what it is. There is nothing I can do about the past, so why waste my time wallowing in my self-pity. Feeling sorry for myself, for regretting my past. Without my past I wouldn't be where I am today. I don't regret my past, I just regret the time wasted. I will never get back the time I wasted on doing nothing, and missing out on important "firsts" But I will take advantage of every moment I do have now. Another little quote... Look at life through the windshield, not the rear view mirror. The rear view mirror is there to remind us of where we have been, but we don't have to go back there. The windshield is larger than the rear view mirror, because that's where we are going. Well keep looking forward and have a great day!
*****Don't forget, I have books available for sale! It is a collections of poems from the rollercoaster I call life. They are avalable on amazon.com and also createspace.com/4931083. OR you can buy one directly from me and I will sign it! Check it out!***** Good Monday morning! My name is Lauren & I'm a happy recovering alcholic/addict. I've been thinking about happiness. It is what you make of it. Time spent unhappy is time wasted. Here is another quote I like. "Happiness is appreciating what you have, not getting what you want." I have been more happy now in my life than ever. I am so blessed with a wonderful husband and two great kids. They have loved me unconditionally. Happiness is a journey not a destination. It is not a point that you get it to and that is it. It is an everyday thing. I am the only person that can make myself happy. I am ultimately responsible for how I feel. If I choose to be miserable in my life, that's where I will stay. If I choose to be happy, life will get better. I have nothing more now than I did when I was drinking, but I am happy. I am happy with what I do have, because I could have lost it all. I should have lost it all. But being in the place I was before, emotionally and pshycologically, I was never going to be happy. I have full appreciation for what I have today. And I do not want to lose that. On that note, that's all I have today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I saw something about optimism. I really like that little saying. Your perception of things has a lot to do with your attitude. Choosing to be optimistic just feels better. If I say I can't, there is no way I ever will, if I don't try. If I think I can, I will.
Optimism is essential to achievement and is also the foundation of courage and true progress. --Nicholas Murray Butler That is one thing I learned about recovery. If I choose to be negative and be a "sober drunk", I can't really be happy. If want to truly be a "recovering alcoholic", I need to be optimistic. Perception is a choice. I can choose to say a cup is half empty or half full, but technically it is full. 1/2 water and 1/2 oxygen. :) Every morning when my day starts, I need to smile, at least it is a good start. So SMILE! Have a great day! Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. The best way to help yourself is by helping others. I like that quote. That is so true. I really understand that now. Before I was very selfish, I didn't really care about anyone else. Now I just want to share my story and be able to help others in recovery, and those still struggling. I always have a hand out for anyone that needs help, needs someone to talk to. I am human and have problems too, and sure would like to have someone there for me in times of trouble. People talk about how what goes around, comes around. Or about karma. It is true. Before, I didn't care about anyone so I had no one there for me. It was my own fault. I pushed everyone away. I was isolated. But being sober, I have gained new friends, real friends. Ones that understand me, (as much as you can.) :) Who really care about me and my sobriety. And I feel the same about them. So I am so much happier now, being negative only made everything around me negative. There was nothing positive about me or what I did. Being sober, and filling my life with joy, makes everything around me seem better too. Life is still hard, but someone always has it worse. When I am troubled I need to comfort someone more troubled. When I am lonely, there is always someone lonelier. I just need to keep my head up, it will get better. Well, that's all for today. Have a great one!
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