Day 1148 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  This quote really hit me today.  I didn't start drinking or using with the intent of becoming an addict.  I started because I liked the way it made me feel...or not feel.  Well both actually.  Drinking in the beginning was my "liquid courage."  I was outgoing, but it gave me courage to talk to guys. Looking back now, I see that wasn't the way to go about it.  Drinking and using didn't make me more sexy, it actually made me less attractive.  Once I continued this way of life, I began to not feel, or deal with life, and I liked that too.  I didn't have to deal with the feelings of disappointment or rejection, I just drank and used to not have to deal with it.  But not dealing with it, didn't make it go away.  Because when I got sober, I had a lot of things that were still there that I needed to deal with.  We need to find other ways of meeting our needs than with drugs or alcohol, and there are a lot of them out there.  :)  Today, I go to church, AA meetings, and have a good support system.  I talk about my problems, instead of running from them. That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!