Day 230

Hi, my name is Lauren and I'm an alcoholic/addict. Today I've been sober 230 days.  Yipee! Well I didn't really finish my story yesterday so I will continue today.  So in high school I got into drugs and alcohol.  I'm not going to get specific, because I don't need to romanticize about it.  Anyways, I continued this for some years. Then met an amazing man, got married and had 2 beautiful children. I didn't use drugs or drink when I was pregnant with them, but after breastfeeding I would start drinking again. Drugs were never a problem after we had kids, but I could never stop drinking for good.  I don't know how I did it, when I as pregnant. But I guess it wasn't about me anymore, it was all about them, and giving them a safe environment to live in. Shortly after our second child started drinking again, heavily.  I pretty much isolated myself from everyone.  All my friends, family, everyone.  I didn't want anyone to know, but I was always sick. Sick when I drank, sick when I didn't. Missed family functions, a lot of important things a mom should not miss.  But anyways, I am not going to talk about all the bad things.  I have changed my life for the better now, and will elaborate on that.  :)  So I pretty much had an intervention with my husband and parents. They told me to go to treatment or they were done.  They had tried so many times to help me, but I first had to help myself.  So they called a hotline February 9th, 2014 at 10:40 pm.  I told them I had to go away. I would not stay local.  I needed to go away, far away, to find me.  So they talked for a while on the phone to the rep. and shortly after they had a flight booked for me the next day to go to Palm Springs, California at 6:40 am.  And that is just the beginning. 

More tomorrow... Have a great one!