Day 247

Good afternoon!  My nameis Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict.  I heard someone the other day say. "Why me?  Why did I become an addict?  I shouldn't be an addict."  Well, I thought about it for a minute and realized, I didn't want to either, but people with cancer don't choose to have it either.  We are dealing with a cunning, baffling, deadly disease.  When I was younger, I didn't think, "Hey, when I grow up I want to be a doctor, oh wait no, I want to be an alcoholic." I didn't choose to become an addict, and I can't choose not to be an addict.  I will always be an addict, but I am responsible for my recovery. I can choose what I do about it today.  I can choose how I respond to different circumstances today.  Before I would drink for any reason, like, "I had a bad day, I need a drink."  or "Today was a great day, I need to celebrate!"  Then everything became a reason to drink.  It was sunny. It was cloudy. I was happy. I was sad.  EVERYTHING.  It was ridiculous. Now, I just celebrate life because God gave me one more day on this earth, alive and sober.  That's all for today.  Have a great night!