Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. One thing I have always struggled with, is loving myself, being happy with who I am. I have always felt like somewhat of a failure. I was good in sports and did good in school but inside always felt defeated. I was never pretty enough, or whatever. I have never felt beautiful. People would say that, but I always thought they were just being nice. But in all actuality, what is pretty? Who are the "pretty police?" What am I really trying to attain? Who am I trying to please? The only person I really can please is myself. When I was drinking and such, I hid all my true feeling, I didn't want to feel, like the crappy person I was. Now, I have learned to forgive myself, and truly love myself. If I don't love myself, who else will. I have also been more aware of this, having a daughter. Growing up is hard as it is, none the less kids being mean and judging you. I need to show her she is beautiful, and make her feel and truly believe it. I need to stop being hard on myself, telling myself I'm fat. If she hears me say that, what is she going to do if she gains a few pounds? Lose all self-esteem? Feel like crap, because she thinks she is "fat." Having a daughter has really made me think of how what I do can REALLY affect others. So today I feel beautiful and am happy to be me! Have a great day!
I'm Lauren. Get inside the head of a recovering alcoholic/ addict.