Day 279

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict.  I have really learned that being alone and being lonely are two different things. If you can be comfortable with yourself by yourself, you are not lonely. When I was drinking, I was lonely and isolating myself.  I avoided going to family functions, to friend's houses, anything.  I didn't want to be around anyone else, none the less myself.  I was sulking in my own miserableness.  I had to learn to ask others for help.  " We gradually and carefully pull ourselves out of the isolation and loneliness of addiction and into the mainstream of life."  Basic Text p. 35.  I need the fellowship of other people to continue getting better.  I cannot do it alone.  There is another little saying I like.  " You are confined only by the walls you build yourself.  Here is a poem I wrote.  

the wall

i've been hiding
won't let you in
brick by brick 
building this wall
burying my soul
now cautiously 
removing each

I felt so alone, but I built the wall myself, and now must slowly tear it down brick by brick. Well, that's all for today, Have a great one!