Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. I used to think I deserved what I had. I deserved to be miserable because of what I had done or not done. I didn't deserve to happy. But it is true, the moment I decided what I thought I really deserved, I knew I deserved it. I deserved better. I deserved to be happy. But it wasn't only about what I deserved, it was about my family. My kids didn't deserve to lose their mom when they were 6 and 2, because of her drinking. They didn't deserve to have her miss their first recital, their first t-ball game. My husband didn't deserve to have a wife that didn't care, that didn't act like a "wife." Last year, at school he looked like a singe father. HE was the one going to her parent/teacher conferences. HE was the one picking her up at the bus stop. They deserved better, to be happy. So now I am doing to what I can to make them happy, to make me happy. To do what is best for my family. I had to learn that my past was the past and I didn't deserve to be miserable for the rest of my life, I deserved to be happy. So one day at a time, I will make my life better, and be happy. Happiness is appreciating what you have, not getting what you want. That's all for today! Have a great one!
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