Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. I know I am late today at posting this. But it s a day I have not experienced yet in sobriety. I was sick all night, I mean all night. I could get out of bed to go to work. Lying in bed today for hours and hours made me really think of how "sick" I was. I was so used to throwing up multiple times a day, it was "normal" for me. I was so used to being miserable, that was all I knew. I'm sitting here typing, ashamed of how I used to be. My daughter has her Christmas program at school tonight. I still feel like crap, but I will be there for her this year. I can't imagine being like this all day everyday. I would work like this, because I had to. If I missed work, I would lose money on my paycheck, and that bought my alcohol. So "Ya do what ya gotta do!" I don't ever want to go back to the way things were. I had to get to the point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired to be able to change. Well, I got to that point. So here I am today, reminiscing of how miserable I was, and how happy I am now. So even though I am really "sick" today, I don't want to be "sick" again. Have a great day!
I'm Lauren. Get inside the head of a recovering alcoholic/ addict.