Day 302

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I"m a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict.  I have been thinking, once again, (I do a lot of that now days), about myself and how I will be remembered.  A year ago, I know I wouldn't have been remembered well.  People would have thought, "That girl killed herself, with alcohol." No one would really feel bad, they would think I deserved it.  But now I feel, I have had a more positive affected people in my life.  People would remember me with a smile, not a grimice.  I know this is kind of morbid today, but before I didn't really think I was going to die.  Doctors told me MANY times alcohol was going to kill me, and I really didn't think it would happen to me.  God really had his hand in that, because many times I should have.  Now, I am more realistic, and know that it is inevitable, but want to leave a "good" footprint on this earth.  I want to be remembered happy, humbled and blessed, not sad, sick and sorry.  I am glad today to say that I think I have changed the thought of me.  I know this is a wierd topic today, but it's real.  So with that being said, I'm grateful for one more day alive and sober.  By the way, today is 10 MONTHS SOBER!!!!! Have a great day!