Day 316

Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  It is so crazy what I used to care about, what I put first in my life.  I was so selfish.  I was so worried about making it to the gas station as soon as they opened, so I could be "good" for the day.  I was more worried about getting caught, or caught in a lie, regarding my drinking.  My priority was a lie.  It is pretty pathetic that I had to hide it, to lie about drinking, when everyone knew it.  I thought I was hiding it pretty good, when in reality everyone knew there was a real problem.  I thought about no one but myself.  I had to have alcohol in my system all the time, not because I was having fun anymore.  It was so I wouldn't die. I would hide it everywhere, I had to have some vodka somewhere close at all times.  Now, I have so much more time to enjoy and not have to lie. There is so much less going on up in my head, because I'm not lying all the time.  I don't have to think as much because the truth is so much easier to live.  :)  I am just living, and loving life.  I enjoy what I care about today, my loves, my life, and laughing. What do you care about?  Have a great day!  Merry Christmas!