Day 329

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Sometimes I think I have to deal with the hardest things in life.  And ask, "Why?"  I have to stop and think that maybe what I am going through now is to get me to a better place.  I may not see it now, but God has my life planned out.  There is a reason I am put through, or put myself through, everything I am.  I think what I want is the best...the way it should be.  But a lot of the time I am way off.  With relationships, jobs, friendships.  Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let go of what I think is right.  But most of the time in hindsight, I see why.  It is the hardest thing to understand at the time, why things are going the way they are.  Why he broke up with me?  Why I lost my job?  Why she lied to me? Why? Why? Why?  It is difficult to sit back and let God.  Let God take the steering wheel and drive this crazy train I'm on.  Lord know, He does a better job than me.  :)  I have tried too many times to do things my way or the way I think they should be and it never seems to turn out right.  So I just need to patient, and see what God has planned for me.  When one door closed, another door opens.  I'm never left in the hallway for too long.  Have a great day!