Day 345

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Today is my daughter's 7th birthday.  I am so proud of her.  She is an amazing, smart, funny girl.  This past year, our relationship has grown so much.  For a while I was just a mom, that took care of her physical needs, and attempted to be there, but with alcohol involved, it wasn't 100%.  I will never be able to get back that time, but I can only do what I can today, and that is to be the best mom I can be.  The mom my kids deserve to have.  She has always loved me, but I feel now we are closer, have a stronger bond than before.  She was at the age where she didn't know what was going on, but she did.  She is smart.  But she sees me now, and sees me as the mom that will always be there for me.  The mom she can tell anything to.  The mom she can trust to help her through anything. Lord knows, I have probably done it. On the other hand, with my mom too.  For a while, I pushed her away.  I wanted to do things my way, the right way. (right) :) But I finally figured out, I can't do it alone. She has always been there for me, to love me, to care for me, to listen to me, to forgive me.  Today I am trying to be the best mom and daughter I can be.  I love you mom!  I love you Laney and happy birthday! Love you, love you, love you!  Everyone else, have a great day!