Day 349

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  For my New Year's resolution, I chose to be healthier, like a million other people.  :)  But I am serious.  Last year started off terrible.  I got into a bad car accident, then went to rehab, but that's what started my sobriety.  After treatment, I had to take care of myself. At that point I was more focused on the mental side.  I was such a mess from drinking, I didn't know which way was up.  In treatment, they said it would be months, maybe a year before my head would be clear.  When I was 30 days sober, I thought I knew everything and was thinking right again.  But as the months passed it got clearer and clearer. It's crazy.  Looking back now, I was no where near clearheaded, but it sure was a lot more than clear than when I was using. Today, at almost 1 year sober, I have never felt this good in my life.  Since I have been so focused on my mental state and consciousness, I have been slacking a little on my physical state.  Before, I was drinking all the time, and I never ate.  I was drinking empty calories.  I was thinner, but had a very distended abdomen from the swelling of my insides. Once I got sober, I had to learn to eat again.  To eat healthy.  At first, it was hard, I wasn't used to eating food, none the less healthy food. In treatment, we had 3 meals per day, with healthy snacks in between. When I got home, I had to make food. (something I had never really done before) Now I cook regularly. Needless to say, I put on a few pounds.  So as of January 1st, I started working out everyday, and eating healthier. I have learned that food that is good for you, doesn't have to be food that doesn't taste good. So now, it is time to take care of the physical me.  It was hard at first, but so was getting sober.  So I use the same mindset for this.  Once day at a time.  I don't have to tell myself I am going to work out for the rest of my life...one day at a time.  It actually feels good now to be sore.  It feels like I am doing something.  I am proud of myself, for what I have done in my life. Where I am today. Who I have become. Well, that's all for today.  Have a great one!