Day 350

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I used to always think what I did whatever I did because it made me happy.  When I drank, I had fun, I was happy.  But I wasn't.  I thought I was hiding my feelings, stuffing them down to never really be felt.  But boy was I wrong. I was going to end up feeling them, whether I liked it or not, and it ended up being all at once.  I have learned to do what truly makes me happy. Praising God for my many blessings.  Spending time with my family.  Making memories, smiling, being silly with the kids, laughing.  Loving them makes me happy, helping them makes me happy, making them smile makes me happy. I am so blessed to be able to enjoy what God has given me. I used to take for granted how lucky, well not lucky, but how blessed I really am.  I shouldn't take for granted anything I have, and I need to be less self-centered.  I will say, I have improved quite a bit, but am by no means perfect and do still struggle with it.  I have to ask God for His help, to get me through each day, to live for Him and and for Him to keep be sober one more day, one day at a time.  So today, I live, laugh and love more than I ever have before, and it feels amazing!  Have a great day!