Day 351

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  When I got sober, I had to change my attitude about everything.  But me realizing and differentiating what I could and could not change was ever harder.  There were a lot of things I couldn't change.  And somethings I wanted to change at the time, looking back I'm ok with how they were.  Sometimes, I would think it would have been better for me to never have started drinking.  But then I wouldn't be able to help others going through what I did.  I would just be another "normal" person.  Sometimes, I wonder who decides what is normal or not.  What are the specifications for "normal?"  Is there a questionnaire you have to fill out to be considered normal?  And wouldn't be the person in charge of assigning the "normal" sticker be abnormal because they are obsessive about stereotyping? No one is normal, but everyone thinks they are normal, and everyone else isn't.  Wow, sorry for that rant.  :)  But anyways, I can't change the past, and now looking back I wouldn't change it.  I need to only focus my energy on what I can change and that is only me, and my reactions.  I need to let go of the past, leave it where it is, and keep moving forward.  And it's not only realizing what I can't change, but accepting that. Realizing is seeing it, but accepting it is feeling it and believing it.  That's all for today.  Have a great one!