Day 354

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I really have enjoyed writing since I got sober.  It is a different type of writing.  Before, I would just write because it made me feel better, sometimes it was just words.  Words I wanted to get out my head. I have started writing more in depth of my thoughts.  Today I write more about comparing my feeling from the past til now.  My whole thought process is different.  When I changed my priorities and stopped being so selfish, a lot changed.  I am so much happier now.  It amazes me how much attitude has affect on my life.  When I was negative, my life sucked, or so I thought.  I thought every one was out to get me.  I felt like I was bad, and no one would ever forgive me.  I felt I would never amount to anything.  I was just here to get married, have kids, and try to live a normal life like everyone else.  I wasn't special, I had no talent.  I was just miserable.  Once I got sober, and truly understood how blessed I really am, and started be grateful and caring, my life got better.  I want to share my love and joy.  It takes guts for me to be so open and honest. Sometimes I wonder why I write what I do.  Sometimes I think I write too much.  But my life is an open book.  I have nothing to hide.  I am no longer a prisoner of my past, or ashamed of who I am today. that's all for today!  Have a great one!