Day 355

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict.  I really like this quote.  I love finding things I have written before.  When I was in treatment I wrote... a lot.  I had a notebook with me all the time. At that time, I was writing letters to my family.  I would write specific ones to my children, husband and parents.  My daughter knew that I went to go see a doctor so he could help make me better.  She knew I was sick. She knew I needed help, so it was easier for her knowing that I had to go away for a while, I was going to come back feeling better.  She knew it was for the best.  I was cleaning today, and found the box of letters I had written to my husband and kids.  It was so interesting reading how I felt at that time.  How I felt the first days getting sober.  How miserable I was. How I just wanted to get better.  How after so many days, I thought I was so much better.  Then after more days, how much of a difference there was then too.  Then by the time I left, I thought I knew it all.  I had all the "tools"  to help keep me sober. Reading what I wrote, and how exactly I felt, when looking back now, is so eye-opening. I don't remember the first 3-4 days.  I am so glad I wrote.  I can now reflect on my previous thoughts. Writing is a therapy for me.  I love doing it in the moment and reading it back later.  That's all for today!  Have a great one!