Day 374

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I have been really thinking about apologies.  There is a difference between saying I'm sorry and apologizing.  Anyone can say they are sorry, but really meaning it, and doing something about it, and making it right, or doing the best you can to make it right is apologizing.  Admitting you are wrong is a hard thing to do.  Ego likes to get in the way.  I like to think I am always right.  Well I am, but you know. I have a hard time listening to someone and really believing them, I am right. Sometimes, I will go out of my way to Google something to prove to you that I am right.  I have a Bachelors degree. I know a lot of things.  I am smart.  So I am right. It is hard for me to accept that someone else is right and I am wrong.  But once I do accept that, I need to say I am sorry, really mean it, try to be a better listener next time. Try not to be so quick to assume I am always right.  Doing something wrong, then saying sorry, and doing it again and again and saying sorry over and over, makes sorry lose it's meaning.  When you say you are sorry, the other part of it is making it right, or not donig it again.  People make mistakes, but making the same ones over and over gets old, and that's when people lose trust.  And once you lose trust, that's a whole nother story.  That's all I got for today. Have a great one!