Day 375

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Forgiving others is sometimes easier than forgiving yourself.   I know when I got home, people forgave me for what I had done or not done.  People knew I was sick, and was now getting better.  I knew it would take time to earn their trust back. But it was hard for me to forgive myself.  I had done a lot of hurtful things.  I wasn't there a lot of the time.  Hid in my room.  I would go to work and come home and go to bed.  I didn't feel good and had to hide my drinking.  I was so unsocial.  But I have to quit beating myself up over it.  I had to learn to forgive myself.  I had to forgive myself for the bad things I did, I was not a bad person.  Forgiving is setting the prisoner free, and that prinsoner is me. Once I forgave myself, I could heal, then and only then could I heal.  And once I let go, I could grow. That's all I got today!  Have a great one!