Day 410

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  When I was drinking, my life was a mess, my mind was such a cluster, I didn't know which way was up.  I threw bills away, because if it was out of sight, it was out of mind.  I put things off, I didn't want to deal with life.  When I went to the treatment center, they retaught me how to think, they taught me to make my bed every morning, they taught me organization.  NO, they didn't brainwash me.  They taught me how live.  They taught me how reorganize my priorities.  They corrected my thinking.  Once that happened, the rest fell into place.  Now I am not saying life is perfect, but it is a lot better that it was.  I am paying off bills. I got a better job, I am not calling in sick all the time, I have a better relationship with my husband, and kids, and parents.  My life is better in general.  It doesn't mean material things, my head is just in a better place. The ball of yarn up there is not unravelled, it is at least some what rolled up.  Before, my thoughts were all over the place, and I didn't care about anything.  It is carzy looking back now, to see how messed up I really thought.  How I thougth bills were going to just disappear.  Well, nope, now I am paying them, months, and years later, sober, and hating it.  But I gotta do what I gotta do.  Consequenses.  But that is all is part of my recovery.  That's all I got for today!  Have a great one!