Day 443

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I think my rock bottom was, when I was lying in bed at 3 in the morning and I was out of alcohol and I was shaking and throwing up and just waiting for the gas station to open up so I could get some more vodka.  It was in January.  It was freezing out, snow on the groud.  I needed my vodka.  I was just lying there waiting...thinking it would be so much easier if I were dead.  No one would have to worry about me anymore.  No one would care.  I had life insurance, so the kids would be ok. Looking back now, I feel terrible.  Seeing how sick I really was, how bad the alcohol had taken over my life.  But that bottom is the foundation of my life now.  God is my rock.  God saw my through that and has brought me to where I am today.  And continues to guide me every day.  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  My bottom may be different from your bottom, but I hit mine and don't want another one, and I'm sure if I went back out there and drank again, my bottom would be worse.  So I will just stay sober and enjoy my wonderful little life.  That's all I got for today.  Have a great one!