Day 462

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I guess one reason I didn't want to quit drinking was that I was scared.  I was scared to grow up.  Scared to be responsible.  That may sound stupid. I know I am an adult and have kids, but I didn't wanna pay bills, I didn't wanna go to work, but I wanted to do what I wanted to do, and you just can't do all of those things.  You kind of need money to do that, and I'm not independently wealthy and don't have a sugar daddy, so guess I just needed to grow up, get sober and get on with my life.  And once I did that, I found out life is good.  Resposibility isn't so bad.  Yeah, it does still suck a little, but it does have it's perks.  I GET to get things.  I make them opportunities, not obligations.  I GET to go to work, some people don't get to, some people don't have jobs.  I GET to pay my house payment, some people don't have a roof over their head, or a bed on lay on.  Today I am proud to be free of the bondage of drugs and alcohol.  It no longer has control of my life.  That's all I have today.  Have a great one!