Day 479

Good morning!  My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Today I am struggling.  I got denied a refill on one of medications. The last 2 months someone has stolen 10 pills each month from my bottle. Maybe it is my fault, I keep them in my purse.  I won't do that again.  But I am bad at taking them so I usually take it at work.  They are nothing special.  I don't abuse them.  But someone stole them.  So I called for a refill early last month, which looks bad. And I am now out of pills for the next month and a half.  I took half pills the last few days to ween down till I got my refill.  Now I have to wait my appointment in the middle of July. I am so frustrated.  So my doctor probably thinks that me, the alcoholic/addict, is abusing pills now.  Which I am not.  Last night at our meeting we talked about acceptance.  I really need to practice that right now.  But I feel like hating the person that did that.  Why would you do that?  Go into someone else's purse and take what's not yours.  That's not right.  That't illegal.  I am so hurt.  And it had to be someone I know.  Someone close to me.  That's what hurts the most.  It's probably someone I see every day.  So, ok, I am over it.  There is nothing I can do about it now.  That's the story.  About resentment, Ralph Waldo Emerson also said,  "For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seecond of happiness."  So I need to spit out the poison and quit waiting for someone to die.  That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!