Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I am struggling. I got denied a refill on one of medications. The last 2 months someone has stolen 10 pills each month from my bottle. Maybe it is my fault, I keep them in my purse. I won't do that again. But I am bad at taking them so I usually take it at work. They are nothing special. I don't abuse them. But someone stole them. So I called for a refill early last month, which looks bad. And I am now out of pills for the next month and a half. I took half pills the last few days to ween down till I got my refill. Now I have to wait my appointment in the middle of July. I am so frustrated. So my doctor probably thinks that me, the alcoholic/addict, is abusing pills now. Which I am not. Last night at our meeting we talked about acceptance. I really need to practice that right now. But I feel like hating the person that did that. Why would you do that? Go into someone else's purse and take what's not yours. That's not right. That't illegal. I am so hurt. And it had to be someone I know. Someone close to me. That's what hurts the most. It's probably someone I see every day. So, ok, I am over it. There is nothing I can do about it now. That's the story. About resentment, Ralph Waldo Emerson also said, "For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seecond of happiness." So I need to spit out the poison and quit waiting for someone to die. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
I'm Lauren. Get inside the head of a recovering alcoholic/ addict.