Day 505

Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Thinking and being inside my head used to be a big problem for me especially when I was drinking and using.  I still sometimes catch myself getting inside my head, but quickly get out, before I get carried away creating problems that aren't really there.  I used to lie in bed or on the bathroom floor, just thinking.  Crying out to God to make the pain stop.  Make me stop drinking.  I would think myself crazy...or crazier.  It was insane. Just thinking back makes me sick.  I hate it.  I was sooooo miserable, so unhappy.  I don't ever want to go back there.  Thinking too much and worrying are a dangerous combination. They don't get you anywhere. "Worrying is a total waste of time.  It doesn't change anything.  All it does is steal your joy and keep you very busy doing nothing." -unknown.  Worrying won't stuff the bad stuff from happening, it just stops you from enjoying the good.  So sometimes I need to take a deep a breath, slow down and smile and everything will be ok.  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one! PS. I have books and bookmarks for sale in the store on my site here.  You should check it out.  :)