Day 539 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Trust is a touchy subject with any recovering alcoholic or addict.  Some think they deserve to have it right away.   Some understand that it takes time to earn back, and with some it may never be completely gotten back.  We talked about it a lot in treatment, and I knew what I had ahead of me.  I had hurt a lot of people, and had a lot of trust repairing to work on.  I knew it would take a lot of time.  I knew not to expect anything.  They would only give me the trust they thought I deserved, in the time they thought neccessary.  I had to respect that.  At first it was a hard thing to accept, but I had to learn to deal with it. And acceptance is a huge part of the program.  I had put myself in that situation in the first place, and had consequence to deal with.  This was one of them.  It's been almost 18 months, and I'm sure I'm still not fully trusted.  But I am happy with where I am at in my life today.  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one!