Day 547 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Today I am going to go back to the way I used to feel.  I saw this quote and know a lot of people can relate, so figured I would write about it.  I pushed a lot of people away when I was drinking and using...a lot of people I loved, the most important people in my life as a matter of fact.  I got to the point where I was isolating.  I wanted to be by myself, but I did also want someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok. To tell me they loved me.  I would lay in my bed at night alone, with alcohol hidden every where in my room, so I really wasn't alone.  At that point alcohol was my only friend.  I would sneak shots all night.  It was ridiculous! I wasn't doing it for fun anymore.  I was doing it do I wouldn't die!  I needed help!  Finally, I got the help I needed.  I quit pushing people away. I started hugging them and letting them tell me it's ok, and now we are doing it together.  That's al I have for today!  Have a great one!