Day 557 Clean & Sober

Good morning!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I remember when I was drinking all the time, I was taking Lorazepam all the time.  I was so anxious.  I always felt like I was gonna hae a panic attack.  If I didn't have my vodka in time, if I didn't have a glass of wine in time, I was shaking, my chest felt like it was pressing so hard into my lungs, I was going to suffocate.  I couldn't breathe. I had lost all faith...well not all faith.  God was still with me, but I had turned my back.  Once I got to the treatment facitility and they took my pills, I about freaked out.  What was I going to do without them?!?!?!  But I made it through, and haven't had one since. The restart of my faith ended my anxiety.  Now I'm not saying I don't get frustrated and anxious about life's events, but NOWHERE near what I was before.  I don't need medicine today. I am so blessed and so grateful!  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one!