Day 568

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcholic/addict.  Sometimes I would sit and try to figure out why I was the way I was. I would try to understand why I did the things I did.  Where exactly in my life I started to make the 'bad' decisions.  What was that pivital point in my life that made me start to turn down that road of self-destruction. What could have I done differently.  But then I have to stop and take a step back and realize that I can't do anything about it now and just accept it.  I will never be able to understand it, I just need to accept it. There are a lot of things in my life that I will never understand, that I just need to accept.  It is a very hard realization, but it is very true.  Another hard truth is, you are exactly where you need to be in your life right now. Whether it be a good place or a bad place, it will get you to where you need to be, I believe.  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one!