Day 589 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I used to sit and think..why...why me?  Well...Why NOT me?  There are a lot of things going on in my life right now, and in those people I care a lot about life's right now.  Some people have heard words they didn't want to hear, some people did things they shouldn't have done.  Some things some people don't know how to talk about yet, some we are just praying for wisdom right now, some that are going to the ultimate 'wanting to end it all' reasoning.  It is frustrating and scary in the realization of me being helpless.  I know I am really not, when I was never in control anyway.  All I can do its pray.   I remember feeling so sad and lonely and questioning everything?  Questioning things I knew were true, but doubting it all.  Trying to reason with myself and my suicidal thoughts.  So all I can to today, in any situation I find myself in is pray.  I have no control of it.  And the little things I do have control over, I can change!  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one!