Day 603

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Being happy is a very hard thing to describe.  I have talked about this before.  There are many different things that make people happy.  Money makes some people happy, but probably not forever.  Having nice things, nice cars, nice clothes, but those are all material things. Do those things really matter?  We don't get to take those things with us when we die.  What was going on inside my head was what was making me crazy, when I was drinking and using.  When I get inside my head, I think too much.   I think of all the things that could happen and could go wrong, that never do.  I make up all these crazy senarios of unrealistic situations and let my mind take over when I should be giving it to God and getting out of my head.  Sometimes, most of the time, I just need to pray.  I have finally realized happiness isn't getting all the things I thought I wanted, a newer car, a bigger house, a better job.  It is just figuring out who I am and being about to stay out of my head, and give things up to God, and love myself for who I am.  That's all I have for today. Have a great one!