Day 617

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  There are some days I can find a quote I want to talk about right away, and some days I think about it and search for hours before I find the right one.  Today I have been struggling.  And the longer I do this the harder it gets, the less I have to go from.  Yes, there are still a million quotes out there, but a lot of them relate, or are almost like ones I have done before and a lot are along the same lines anyway.  But yesterday our neighbor died, and a couple days before that a couple girls that were in the class before me in high school me died and all these people younger than me are dying.  Some people that were recovering alcoholic/addicts that I know have passed recently, some not.  But today and last nite I have been doing a lot of thinking, just about life.  And how short it really is.  And why we are really here. And why I can't go out and drink when something goes wrong.  So I can't let my emotions get the best of me and I can't let my emotions control my reactions to situations in my life.  Life has it's ups and downs and it always will, but alcohol is not a solution.  IT WILL ALWAYS BE THE PROBLEM.  At least for me. Well, that is all I have for today.  Have a great one!