Day 626 Clean & Sober

Good morning! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  No matter what I TEACH my children, if they were do SEE me doing the thing I told them NOT to do, they would think it was ok to do.  I am so glad I quit drinking and stuff when I did because it could and would have got so much worse.  My kids were young, and my little guy doesn't remember much of my drinking behavior, but my daughter does, she was in Kindergarden. I isolated more, but I guess that was better than being violent.  I have to set a good example for them.  Yes, I want to teach them please, and thank you, and how to respect others and to be kind.  But if I don't do it, and them SEE ME do it, then how are they going to see it set in motion.  I can't be hypocritical.  I can't day one thing and do another.  I can't tell them to be nice to each other and then fight with their dad. How does that make sense?  What about yelling at them to stop yelling?  (Not that I ever do that...ha ha)  But seriously.  I need to stop and think, my children are going to grow up and be big people someday.  What kind of people do I want them do become?  I guess I have a lot do to with that.  That's all I have for today!  Have a great one!