Day 644

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  This weekend, I had someone reach out to me, they messaged me before they supposedly started drinking/using.  Then later that night went ahead and did.  But for a while I felt really guilty, like there was more I should have done. When in reality I had done what I could, talking to them and such, but when it comes down to it,  I only have control over if I drink or use or not.  I can't really stop anybody.  I can't save everyone.  I can only save myself.  I can only love them.  And that night, no matter what I said, made a difference.  That person was gonig to do what they wanted to do.  I have to worry about MY sobriety, and I can't let everyone's else's relapses get to me.  Yes, they suck.  But, I do understand why this one did so much though, because I was reached out to, I felt if I talked a little bit longer, or said something a little different, or whatever.  And I do know this person did reach out to other people as well too, so... that made me feel a little better.  But it wasn't me...this time.  That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!