Day 689

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I saw this quote in the 24 hour reading today and it really hit home. This is exactly how I felt when I was drinking or using.  I vividly remember laying in bed by myself thinking about how I was pushing everyone away, but I just wanted someone to hold me.  It is such an oxymoron.  And you can fill in the blank of alcoholic too, with addict, or probably a few other things.  I'm sure a lot of people have felt like this before.  It's a terrible feeling.  You are pushing all those you love, all those who care so much about you away, but the reality is you just want someone to hold you and tell you everything is going to be ok.  I am so glad I don't have to feel like that anymore.  That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!  Happy New Year!!!