Day 697 Clean & Sober

Good morning!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recoving alcoholic/addict.  Today I am going to be real with you.  Not that I am usually not, but I am going to be raw, and completely honest.  It's sick and scary, but true.  It's how I used to be, and it's the change in me.  I'm not proud of this, and it's hard for me to say these words, maybe it's easier for me to type them, so here it goes.  I used to drive 30 minutes out of the way every Sunday morning to get my booze before they would sell it in my town, because I "had" to have it.  I would do this before I dropped my kids off at my parents house so they could go to Sunday school, because I knew they needed to grow up knowing God. All the while my family and the deacons, and some people at church were praying for me in my alcoholism. Months later I got into a car accident, and still didn't think I had a problem.  One month after that, I went to treatment, where I got sober.  Now I am a member at that church and just starting helping in the children's ministry there.  What a change from a few years ago.  Praise God!  Sometimes it just takes time, and it's always in God's timing.  But you have to have the desire to change or you never will.  That's all for today.  Have a great one!