Day 700 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon! My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Yesterday, I had 23 months sober and it was pretty cool.  I went to 2 different meetings.  One was a closed meeting, and the other was an open speaker meeting at a group I have never been to before.  I went with a good friend and I met some new people and it was nice.  I haven't ever been to many other groups before, which I know I need to go to more, different ones, since I have so many available around me.  Not saying I was scared, but I was out of my comfort zone, but it was good for me.  Today, I want to talk about the two acronyms of FEAR.  One was what I did when I was drinking/using...forget everthing and run.  It was much easier.  Fear was ruling my life.  I would do anything to get out of responsibility, paying bills, whatever.  Today when I am afraid, I don't run.  I rise.  I face it, head on.  Life is going to throw things at me, things I have no control over, but I have God on my side and He will help me through it. No matter what it is.  Now I haven't been through any major things in my sobriety YET, but I know when I do, what I can and will do.  Today, I have my God, my faith, my friends in AA, my friends in church, my family, so many more things than I ever had when I was drinking or using.  Today I have a support system.  I can't do it alone, and I don't have to.  That's all for today.  Have a great one!