Day 701

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  It's interesting to think that when we are so full of ourselves, we think we can fit the Spirit in there too.  When in fact, there isn't enough room. We must be empty of self.  I was at a meeting the other day and heard something that totally blew me away, totally interrupted my thought process of how prayer was.  I mean I knew there were many types of prayer, prayers of praise, of thanksgiving, for forgiveness, for faith, etc.  But how we should be always be selfless and praying for God's will, no matter how hard that may be.  The woman at the meeting spoke of her daughter who was a heroin addict. She was in and out of rehab and in jail. But just couldn't get clean.  The woman kept praying to God for her daughter to get sober.  That's all she wanted, was for her daughter to get sober. This continued for some time.  Things continued to get worse.  She then realized maybe she was praying for the wrong thing.  She then started to pray for God to help her and give her strength and giver her peace through whatever she had to go through in this situation. Soon after this her daughter got out of jail for the last time on a Friday, they had a great weekend together clean and sober, and on that Monday, she got the phone call her daughter OD'ed and died.  Now that was a hard story to listen to, and I'm sure an even harder story to live.  But she said God DID give her the strength and peace she had prayed for.  I'm sure it wasn't easy, but she made it throught clean and sober as well.  It's a lot easeir said than done to have selfless prayers and mean them when we say them.  But in the end God's will be done anyway.  It just easier when we can accept it.  That's all for today.  Have a great one!