Day 715

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  Admitting I was different that my friends was hard.  I mean I knew I was, but saying it out loud was more difficult.  A lot of them could stop after one or two, but I couldn't.  It wasn't just that I didn't want to, it got to the point where I couldn't.  Now this is where some people don't understand.  But why would I, a mother of two beautiful children, choose alcohol over them.  (And I'm not making excuses here or shifting blame.) But it was the alcoholism.  I am an alcoholic/addict.  Once I went to treatment, and learned about it, and myself, and my triggers and how to deal with them I had to change my whole life.  I had to change people, places, and things.  Today, I don't want alcohol.  I know what it will do to me if I were to take one sip.  It took courage to say those words that first time, and I try to remember that every time I say them. That's all for today. Have a great one!