Day 717 Clean & Sober

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  I used to wish I could change my past, or the way I used to be, but today I have learned to realize that that makes me who I am.  It is part of my story. And having regrets or thinking about it all the time or wishing it would go away  just makes it worse.  It doesn't do any good.  It isn't going to make it go away.  It isn't gonig to keep me sober forever.  It just is what it is and I have to learn to deal with it.  Acceptance is a hard thing to learn.  For me, it did't just happen overnight, and I'm not perfect at it either.  There are still alot of things I struggle with accepting on a daily basis.  But it IS something I am better at than when I was drinking and using.  Today I am happy with my life, where I am and where I have been. It may sound weird to say, but God has had me everywhere in my life for specific reasons.  If they aren't good reasons, I should have learned something from them.  That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!