Day 772

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  When I was pretty much told I needed to go to treatment or I was going to die.  I had so many emotions.  I was angry, but I knew I needed help.  I wanted help, but I didn't.  I didn't want to be away from my kids, but I really wasn't "there" anyway. Was I?  I just kept making excuses in my head.  I just couldn't be away from alcohol was what it came down to.  I didn't want to deal with with withdrawals.  What were they going to do at work?  I just kept coming up with more excuses. When they said it would be better me be gone at treatment for the 30 days, then gone for the rest of my kids life.  It hit me.  They were right.  Finally, I gave in.  It was the best decision I could have made.  I finally did something my future self would thank me for, instead of be mad at me for.  Today my kids have their "real mommy" back.  Today could be your day.  That's all I have for today. Have a great one!