Day 883

Good afternoon!  My name is Lauren, and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict.  This is a really interesteing way of looking at sobriety, but it is the truth.  It is not just about quitting drinking,  that was just the beginning.  I had to learn to love myself and learn to live day in and day out without needing to drink.  Today I can do that.  Today I want to live without a drink.  For me, in the end of my drinking days, my health had a lot to do with it, along with my family life, and job, and pretty much everything else.  It was a process, it didn't happen overnight.  There are days I still struggle with loving myself, but I don't want to drink over it.  I have to think of how far I have come, and I play the tape all the way through.  I think of all that I would lose if I were to take that first drink.  It's not worth it to me, so I don't.  Or I haven't yet.  I just take it one day at a time, and worry about today.  I don't want to just be sober, I want to live. And today I am living.  I just happen to be sober, too.  That's all I have for today.  Have a great one!