Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I am just very grateful for everything God has done for me and given me. It may sound cheesy. And I know I have said it a thousand times, but I am so thankful for Him giving me the opportunity to share my story with others. I am so grateful that He loves me in spite of all of what I have done. He has forgiven me. He died on the cross for my sin and rose from the dead. I am not perfect and never will be. But He loves me and gives me guidance on how to live. He walks with me and helps me through life's trials. It makes life easier knowing theire is always someone with me. I may see Him, but He is always there. I feel His comfort. If I pray to Him, He is there. Philippians 4:6-7 says "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." So thank you God for loving me, forgiving me, and sparing me. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
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Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. On last Wednesday was my 16 month sober anniversary date. I forgot to celebrate! My son was in the hospital, so I was so wrapped up in thinking about him and praying for him, I didn't really think about me and praise God and thank Him for helping me stay sober for 16 months. Whodda thunk? :) So thank you God!!! So today I will celebrate. Well actually every day I celebrate another day clean and sober, but every day adds up to another month, and each month adds up to a year. Wow! I can't believe it. Almost a year and a half. Only by the grace of God. It only reminded me because my friend Shane has 17 months today. So shout out to you Shane! Congrats dear friend!!! And to all my other friends who have whatever amount of time, we all have today! And if today is day one! Congrats! And welcome to a better way of life. I guarantee it will be worth it. There may be hard days, but it is always worth it. :) That's all for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Yesterday, Oliver got home from the hospital. It was a long couple days. Him, being 3, we were in the pediatric department, and there were other kids. There was a big toy room, IPads, movies, lots of stuff for them to do. Every once in a while you hear a kid scream and cry. I hated that part. I remember the first time Oli heard that, he said, "That kid is being bad." I had to explain we were in a hospital and that other sick kids were here and they were either sick or hurt too, so no they probably weren't being bad. It's funny how kids think. :) But it gave me a lot of time to think about how fragile life is. How many people and kids these nurses see come in and our of the doors. Some get better, some don't. Hugs and kisses and 'I love you's!' are very important. Say them and do them as often as you can. You never know when it might be your last. That's all I have for today. Have a great one. Oh, and thanks for all the prayers. :)
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. At church in my care group we recently talked about how we should pray, and it should about God's will or in God's timing. We want everything now and think we know how everything is supposed to be when usually we are way off. Early this morning I brought my son to the ER and we are still here now. He has bronchitis and a double ear infection. They decided to admit him and keep him overnight for observation because of his breathing and coughing. So we have a lot of people praying. It really made me think about prayer today. I wonder how many people are praying today that usually don't pray. Some people only pray when they want something or need something, but when in all acuality we should be praying all the time. Praising God, thanking God, not just crying out in a time of need. So not only do I pray for Oliver today to heal his little body, but God I thank you for all you do for us. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I have never been the most patient person, but add alcohol to that and that wasn't a very good combination. Patience is one thing I have to work on, on a daily basis, and with children, and anyone with children knows this, that gets tested daily, sometimes by the minute. No matter how much patience the good Lord gives me, it gets tested too. But I need to not blame anyone but myself as to working on my own issues. I know I am not a perfect person, and won't ever be, but do feel that I am in a better place than I was over a year ago. I do have more patience than I used to have. Some days more than others, some days less. But I need to start every morning in prayer and ask God to help me through each situation and calm me when I need to be calmed. I like this quote, because patience isn't always about the ability to wait, but HOW I wait during that time. I have come a long way, but still have a ways to go and grow. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Sometimes when I write, I learn more about myself than I had originally set out to. Sometimes when I start to write, I write to get something off my chest, or just tell someone how I feel, but in the end, I learn something more about myself. Sometimes I am writing to tell a story and start to tell a story of how I think I feel about a situation, but the more I write, my feelings change. It's crazy how writing works. James Garner said, " Life is a endless process of self-discovery." And each day I am learning more and more about myself. And moreso in my sobriety. Maybe it's because I didn't care as much when I drinking and using or maybe I just wasn't as aware. But I do love my life today, I love my family, and today I am happy. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateul, recovering alcoholic/addict. I have a couple friends of mine father pass away. This has got to be a very hard time for them and their family I met him a few times, but didn't know him well. I can sympathize, but can't empathize. I have lost two grandfathers, but not my father. Always in the past when someone has died I have gone out and gotten wasted and used to "take away the pain" I haven't lost anyone yet in sobriety. That could also be a big test for my sobriety. I know it has been for others. But I believe with my perseverence and God's strength on my side I would be ok. But only time will tell. So I will only take it one day at a time and worry about today. So today, I am sorry for the loss of your much-loved pops. In the still darkness, may comfort find its way to you. My deepest sympathies. That's all for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I am struggling. I got denied a refill on one of medications. The last 2 months someone has stolen 10 pills each month from my bottle. Maybe it is my fault, I keep them in my purse. I won't do that again. But I am bad at taking them so I usually take it at work. They are nothing special. I don't abuse them. But someone stole them. So I called for a refill early last month, which looks bad. And I am now out of pills for the next month and a half. I took half pills the last few days to ween down till I got my refill. Now I have to wait my appointment in the middle of July. I am so frustrated. So my doctor probably thinks that me, the alcoholic/addict, is abusing pills now. Which I am not. Last night at our meeting we talked about acceptance. I really need to practice that right now. But I feel like hating the person that did that. Why would you do that? Go into someone else's purse and take what's not yours. That's not right. That't illegal. I am so hurt. And it had to be someone I know. Someone close to me. That's what hurts the most. It's probably someone I see every day. So, ok, I am over it. There is nothing I can do about it now. That's the story. About resentment, Ralph Waldo Emerson also said, "For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seecond of happiness." So I need to spit out the poison and quit waiting for someone to die. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Growing comes from changing and changing comes through progress. I have had many life changing events in my life: marriage, births, sobriety. Strength and growth have been challenging and a continuous part of my journey and struggle has been there part of the way as well. The path of life is not always a clear path, sometimes there are weeds and vines in the way. Sometimes there is a fork in the road. Sometimes there is a mountain to climb, sometimes a valley, but God is always there by my side, to help me. To pick me pick if I need it. We have all see the poem "Footprints in the Sand" by Mary Stevenson. I love the line..."When you saw only one set of footprints. It was then that I carried you." And sometimes we don't even realize it. He just picks us up. We all have our own struggles, but God also gives us the effort to get through a lot too. I have made it through a lot more than I ever thought I could or should have. So Thank you Lord. That's all I have for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. It's amazing to think how we can always go to God. When we are happy, or sad, or in need or grateful, in every moment. In the morning, I can wake up and thank him for a giving me another day to be alive, a chance to open my eyes and see the beautiful world he created. I have the opportunity to go to work and make money for our family. I seek His guidance throughout the day. Then come home and spend time with my husband and two great kids. I praise Him in my quiet moments. Then I thank Him at night for another great day. When there are painful times, I go to Him. It's funny, well it's really not funny, but when I was drinking/using, I prayed a lot, but not really prayed, I just begged God to take away the pain. I would ask Him to make me stop drinking, make me better, make me stop puking 20 times a day, make it all stop. I would BEG Him. I didn't know it could or would ever really happen. But it did. Here I am. God heard my prayers. So thank you God for your love and forgiveness. That's all for today. Have a great one!
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