Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. It's nice to really know the friends that I do have, know me. The good and the bad. It's nice to know that they don't judge me, like some do. I've come to the point where I am not worried about what people think of me. I know who I am, who God made me to be. I really have learned who my real friends are. Who really cares for me as a person, as I do them. I have also learned not to judge as I did before either. I was worried about people judging me while I was doing the same thing. It's hard to live as a hypocrite, saying one thing and doing another. Looking down a someone for doing one thing, when I was doing the exact same thing. This has really become a self-seeking opportunity. For me to find myself, who I am, who I want to be. I want to be the friend someone is proud to have, proud to share life's experiences with. I want to love, and care for, and be true to. I want to be the best friend I can be. That's all for today! Have a great one!
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Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm, a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Today I have been sober for 11 months. One day at a time. Only by the grace of God have I been able to stay sober...one day at a time. Every day is a blessing. A day to be grateful for all the things God has given me. All the things He has let me experience, feel, and enjoy. There is not ONE day that I wish I would have stayed where I was...in that dark hole I had dug for myself. Not one day I wish I wouldn't have stopped drinking. Not one day I regret making the biggest, hardest choice in my life. Every day I fells so blessed to be given this opportunity to share my story with others. To not be embarrased and ashamed of my past, but to join with others in recovery and rise above this hell we created and wallowed in for who knows how long. Today I am blessed to be alive, clean, and sober one more day! Have a great night!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I am going to start off by saying today's quote is not true for everything. So don't take it literally and try everything that scares you. You don't have to jump out of a plane, or tight rope walk. But I'm talking about change. Getting sober scared me, it was a change. Getting a new job scared me, it was a change. Making new friends scared me, it was was a change. But when I was the way I was, "comfortable," my life was falling apart. I had to change for anything to get better, and all that scared me. Making these decisions scared the heck out of me, but when I gave it to God, He took away the fear. Putting it in His hands, took the weight off me. I knew I wasn't alone. So for me, trying the thing that scared me most, was the best thing I ever tried. That's all for today. Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. We all have ups and downs in out lives. Good times and bad. Triumphs and struggles. But there is one thing true...life goes on. It doesn't stop when it's bad, and it's stop when it's great. It is continually moving. But sometimes it seems we are never happy where we are at this moment. We are anxiously waiting for the next good thing, or wishing the past would get farther away. I have learned to live in the moment. Each one is given to us to enjoy, to remember, to cherish. We have all been through hard times, either financial, emotional, deaths of loved ones and friends, job loss, something. But we have also all been through some great things. We need to be grateful for all that we do have. Remember the bad times, so you can appreciate the good ones more. That's all for today! Have a great one!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic/addict. I've been thinking a lot about how I used to think. I used to think that my way was the best way. Looking back now, all the crazy things I thought should or shouldn't have happened or "Why did I do that?" I see now. There are things today still that I question if are paths I should take. But if I just look to God and let Him take control, my life is less stressful. In my life I thought that with my drinking and using, no one would ever look at me the same, as if I was tainted. But now I can see that what I did and went through may be able to help someone else going through what I did. My goal today is to help others, give back what I have learned and live it everyday. Not just speak it, live it. I've said it a million times, and you've heard it too, everything happens for a reason. Billy Wilder said, "Hindsight is always 20/20." The future, not so much. So when you think things are falling apart, they may really be falling in to place. Have a great day!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I have a friend going through a hard time right now. I hated when I would be down and depressed and people would say, "Keep your head up." It was true, but so much easier said than done. She is also a little bit of a princess, so I found another quote for her. "Keep your head up, princess. Your tiara is falling." :) But so much of what people say, quotes and advice, so much easier to spit the words out than to live by them. And it does take time to get through things. Some people say to get over it. But a lot of the time, you need to get through it, not over it. It's not just something you can forget about. It may be something very important to you, someone. You obviously can't just forget that person ever existed, but remember both the good and bad. There is a reason it isn't the way it used to be. For me, my addiction to alcohol, was a relationship in and of itself. It was a priority to me. When I quit, I broke up with it, it was a hard time to get over. But like with all time, time heals, or at least helps. I wouldn't say it ever "heals." There will always be a scar, a reminder of what was there, but it does get better, and easier. So keep your head up, buttercup! Have a great day!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Sometimes I think I have to deal with the hardest things in life. And ask, "Why?" I have to stop and think that maybe what I am going through now is to get me to a better place. I may not see it now, but God has my life planned out. There is a reason I am put through, or put myself through, everything I am. I think what I want is the best...the way it should be. But a lot of the time I am way off. With relationships, jobs, friendships. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let go of what I think is right. But most of the time in hindsight, I see why. It is the hardest thing to understand at the time, why things are going the way they are. Why he broke up with me? Why I lost my job? Why she lied to me? Why? Why? Why? It is difficult to sit back and let God. Let God take the steering wheel and drive this crazy train I'm on. Lord know, He does a better job than me. :) I have tried too many times to do things my way or the way I think they should be and it never seems to turn out right. So I just need to patient, and see what God has planned for me. When one door closed, another door opens. I'm never left in the hallway for too long. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. Recently, I have been talking about starting over, fresh...changing for the better. But I also don't think that by starting over, you should shove all your feelings of hurt and shame under the rug and leave them there to only grow with time. I needed to feel the feelings that I was hiding before by drinking. They were there for a reason, and needed to be felt, but not all at once or be skewed by my thoughts of reality. I needed to talk to someone, someone I trusted, to get everything off my chest, say how I really felt. I needed to shed all my fears and be open an honest with myself, with how I really felt. Sometimes, I feel that I made myself feel a certain way to make things seem "ok." To lie to myself, about how I really felt. It was easier that way. Feelings are a hard thing to explain. Sometimes it's what your heart tells you to do, and sometimes it's what your heart tells your head to do. It's a hard thing to differentiate. How I feel, or how I think I should feel. But I do notice, if I am looking at all the negative around me, my feelings do get skewed, and I look at how I should feel, not how I really do. That's all for today! Have a great one!
Good afternoon! My name is Lauren and I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. Starting with a clean slate is a wonderful feeling. But really being able to have a new beginning must mean getting rid of all of yesterday's garbage. I have to get rid of the regret and guilt I feel, to truly feel free. To be released from these chains of shame and anger, I need true peace. It is a decision that must be made, to clean the slate. When you wipe a chalkboard clean, there will still be some chalk dust visible, but only the new writtings will be readable. I had to get rid of all the hate and hurt in my heart for the love and peace to replace it. Me being at peace with myself has been a huge part my life's change in recovery. Have a great day!
Good morning! My name is Lauren and I'm a grateful, recovering alcoholic/addict. I am so excited to see what this year brings. I started off last year pretty crappy to say the least, but ended up on top. I had to hit my bottom to get where I am today. I started a new chapter in my life 10 months ago, but right now I get the chance to continue that life this year. I love it! It was nice waking up Jan 1st, and not have a hangover. Being sober, I have had more opportunities than I ever have before. I got a new job, and have better relationships with everyone important to me. I know everyone has resolutions and people say most don't last very long, but I have more motivation to do anything than ever before. I have a reason to live now. I have hope. Each day, I pray that God will get me through one more day and keep me sober. Every night I thank Him for his blessings and another day sober. The above quote says that a new year will bring change. I am the one that made that change. It didn't just happen. Yes, I had a lot of love and support, but ultimately I had to work at it to make the change and make it work. Things changed because I changed. I have no control over anything but myself. I only things I do have control over is myself and how I react to things. So cheers to a new year and a year of positive change. Have a great day!
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